Baby Sahana
It was Friday 6th August and I
patiently waited for the test results and being this impatient person
that I am I could not wait nor did I want to hear that it was once
again negative.
As usual I gave my husband's contact details to the sister in charge
and then went into a meeting.
I felt very uneasy during the meeting but on the first break at 9:30
that moring I decided that I have to call my husband and just get it
over.
At the same time while being put on hold I decided to go through some
emails only to go through my husbands colleague who was busy telling me
"I am so happy for you" and in my mind "for what" until I started
reading and email sent by my husband.
It was positive and I could not
believe my eyes nor hold onto the phone any longer. For the first time
after several attempts these tears were tears of joy.
While growing up I had this
dream of getting married having this fairy-tale wedding and then having
beautiful children that look like both mummy and daddy.
I married the most wonderful, caring and humble man but our
expectations of extending our family took a very long time. It was a
very painful time and the worst was to see that younger ladies are
pregnant and that I was not.
Becoming a mother is easy
because I feel you can share all those motherly feelings towards nieces
and nephews and feel the joy of caring for a child.
I on the other hand wanted to feel what it is to be pregnant, to feel
the babay move, to wear materity clothes, to have cravings at odd
hours, and believe it or not to actually feel what it is to have
morning sickness. I wanted to be called mummy.
That day had finally come and we have a gorgeous baby girl that is
healthy and strong. This was not at all possible without the help and
dedication that Dr Ramdeo had given us. He hung in there for us, hugged
us when we cried after having a failed procedure, then gave us hope and
courage to continue. That's exactly what we did. We realised that if
there is anyone that will be able to help us, Dr Ramdeo will.
With every failed procedure even though it was painful and
traumatising, we gained extra hope that somehow it meant that during
this process we were on step further to becoming parents.
True that it is in Gods time and not ours, and it is also said that God
will help you if you try help yourself. We helped ourselves by
following Dr Ramdeo's advise. We ate healthy, kept positive and left
all the important decisions regarding the procedures to Dr Ramdeo's
professional expertise.
My advise to anyone trying to become pregnant is to never give up, be
positive and realistic about any procedures that Doctor asks you to do.
Throughout my pregnancy Dr Ramdeo and his team treated us like we are
the only couple to have a baby. The ability to have a baby depends on
how far we are willing to go to make our expectations a reality.
I have learnt that having tried and failed is a step closer to success
that not having tried at all.
On our tenth wedding anniversary we had a little bundle of joy to show
for all that patience we had. A miracle we will not forget.
Joshiela and Naveen Suknandan
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